Thursday, May 24, 2012

My Blog is MOVING soon!

I am in the process of moving my blog to WordPress... Be patient with me!

more later...

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Fearlessly anticipate happiness!

Well its Tuesday and so far so good. I am paying attention to each time I start worrying about the next moment by letting those thoughts just go. I don't want my enjoyment of the present moment be ruined by any negative anticipation of future events or feelings. I don't want to allow room in my mind, heart, or spirit for worry.
I can't remember where I saw this, but there was a definition of worry that I liked and I can't remember exactly verbatim, but my translation was: "Worry is fear caused by anticipation of pain." True story.

So I fearlessly anticipate happiness today. I extend that challenge to you too!

Went and saw The Avengers last night. Cannot even tell you how cool it was. Best super hero action movie EVER. :)

Awwww yeah buddy!

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Friday, May 4, 2012

Dont think...Do.

I am at a turning point in my life right now. There have been a lot of difficult things I have been dealing with. Personal demons, if you will. You know when you sense something is really out of balance or you're kind of fighting against something that you can't quite put your finger on? Well I've felt like that for about 2 years. It has brought my happiness, sleep patterns, ability to function, sense of security, and hope to an all time low/dysfunctional state. I have not felt like myself for that long. I have fallen "victim" time and time again to depression, anger/aggression for no reason, insomnia, uncalled-for outbursts, and turning against my family and my relationships. I believe I have been in a battle that is keeping me from a deeper relationship with the Lord, and with the people in my life. I have hurt a lot of people, including myself. I have been fighting myself because I hate what these demons have turned me into.

Well. I am tired of fighting. I am tired of fighting an invisible enemy.

Whatever unrest and disassociation I've been experiencing for the past two years needs to step down. I deserve to be happy. I have no reason to be insecure about myself, where I am going, or what I am able to accomplish. I am going back to the state of peace I had during the time I found my true self. It was not too long ago to recall. I remember how I felt. I remember how I acted. I remember how I dealt with things. I was constantly happy. Yes there were many times I cried or felt so lonely. But I was genuinely happy. I was content with who I was.
That is me. Not the person who has felt the need to fight against everything, including myself. Not the girl who questions everything. Not the person who is afraid of what the day will bring.
I am not afraid. If God is for me, WHO can be against me? The people who love me sure aren't against me. I am fighting the wrong people and cause. Well I am done fighting with myself!

So, here's to a new chapter in my life. A chapter of hope, happiness, faith, strength, peace, joy, contentment, family, love, determination.

I'm already happy.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Walking backwards

I often feel like I'm walking the wrong way on one of those moving walkways they have in airports. No matter how fast I go or big my steps are, I'm still moving backwards. I'm learning to see this not as a "bad" thing. Hey, at least I'm still moving and fighting, right? Moving, good. Fighting, not so much though. I've always (my whole life) sensed an invisible force pushing against me. It drives me to push back, but the force of it is sometimes too great and I fall. I know I'm speaking in annoyingly intangible context, so I'll try to put this in "real" terms.

Societal: I've never fit in. Made fun of when I was younger, mostly because I didn't know much (if anything) about how the world works and what it expects of me as a person. Its not a "I want to be unique, just like everyone else" thing. I actually try to fit in. I'm not incapable of being a "social" person; I go out to lots of different places and get on just fine, making conversation with friends and strangers, can remember names okay, I'm not shy, etc. But I can't/won't do that for long. I can't stand superficiality and I rarely get past that point of small talk unless I knew the person before and actually remember something about that person. I don't care if there's a moment of silence when you realize you don't really have anything else to say, I can busy myself with other things/people or talk about the reason we're in the same place blah blah. It's the "what's the point of learning this person's name and taking up valuable memory space in my brain when I'm probably never going to see them again" that I could care less for. Is that shallow?
My work relationships are not great. Partly because of me. I've reacted before thinking and damaged my own credibility. I've often been a subject of untrue/cruel/damaging rumors, and I've been told that is partly because I am not very open (quiet/a concentrating worker) and therefore vulnerable to gossip. I've also been told that it's because I'm relatively quiet that I can appear stuck up and a "bitch," even though I've never spoken poorly or otherwise rude to the people who have said these things about me. SO, not my problem?

2nd Adjustment!

Fully guilty of #1 every day

Alright so I know it's been a lil while since I posted. I have this whole list of what types of things I want to do for days of the week, and I keep getting frustrated/annoyed that the platform for my real/own website is not the kind of flow I want to go through each time I want to write a post/add pics/etc. I can learn the platform fine I'm just not happy with the flow of it. Got to talk to my dad bout that one. So I'm gonna have like a WordPress hopefully. Like my sis, ChristinJoyful

Anyways, yesterday I had my 2nd braces adjustment. I am SOOOOOOO happy because my teeth are moving so fast! especially the top. I still have my lil' snaggletooth friend, and no bracket on him yet, but next time (first week of June). I got COLOR this time! Just on the bottom--a light purple. It's really nice and subtle and I like it. I got silver on the top teeth, when previously I had iridescent (kind of a shiny white/clear), because the iridescent stains a yellow and I dont like that. It looks nice at first but after a few weeks of oranges and tea, not so good. I didnt even eat curry this time, lol. I pointed the purple out to my bf and a coworker, they cant even notice. Thats a good thing, and makes me feel a little more ballsy about getting colors again.
They put a thicker wire in, tied the braces in differently. The girl who did it has been doing this for 15 years and she was really good and it didnt hurt as much as last time. I told her tie them in as tight as she could cause I want them to MOVE. :)
So now I have figure-8 wire ties on the top front four teeth, no powerchains on the top. Powerchains on the bottom sides only. Here's pics!

I can't believe how good the last one looks!!!! Its such a nice little row!! :) Even the bottom row looks pretty good except for mr snaggle. Otherwise :) See the purple on the bottom??
Sorry the pics aren't all straight on. I took them quickly.
They hurt pretty bad today because of the thicker wire. Didnt sleep to good last night and woke up around 5 to take some more Advil. I'm sure the pain will only be for a few days, and it will help me eat more yogurt.

My daughter's in BORA BORA (French Polynesia) with her Grandma all this week! LUCKY!! She was SO excited! This is where she's staying:
WOW. I was/am scared to death about her going, her safety etc. But most people dont EVER get a chance to go somewhere like this. She's staying at the Four Seasons, too. Spoiled little girl!! ;) I miss her and pray she comes home safe and happy.

Well that's all for now! Been writing lots of songs, happy ones not all the sad ones. I have gotten a little depressed once or twice since I last posted but I'm doing alright. 

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Wednesday Wants and other random thoughts

At the risk of appearing completely selfish, spoiled, and shallow, I'm gonna share some things that I want in my life. Its a good thing that those who know me know that I am fortunately not selfish, spoiled, or shallow. :) Well maybe a little spoiled, but that's because I live in America, the land of greed and excess.
Without further disclaimer, here's the stuff!

Nikon Coolpix S4300 16 MP Digital Camera with 6x Zoom NIKKOR Glass Lens and 3-inch Touchscreen LCD
Pretty nice!!! It's only $160 :) We'll see if next month's budget allows me this luxury. I like taking pics with my iphone, but it would be really nice to have better quality as I love to take pictures! In my other life I am a photographer...  

I mean, who can argue with me here? It's a PANDAR iPHONE COVER.
'nuff said. :)

Magic Mountain
Pandar = self-proclaimed Adrenaline Junkie
I may end up going BY MYSELF if I am such a loser I don't have friends no one can go soon.

And other random thoughts...

My first braces adjustment is tomorrow. I'm not sure if I should be excited or nervous? My teeth started hurting (not bad, just sensitive and sore a lil) last week, so I'm hoping (!) it won't hurt that bad after. I also think my teeth are going to continue to get WORSE before they get better (straighter). Little gaps are showing up, and I'm still not sure if my teeth have such a great shape that, even when they're super straight, I will be as happy as I first thought. I'm hoping I'm just tripping and need to just chill the eff out be patient. But to me, right now, they look definitely worse.

I haven't had the capacity to give a shit about a lot of things lately...

I'm tired of people trying to negatively affect my environment and my attitude just to get a reaction out of me--a problem usually solved by not giving a shit, and just going into PandarWorld of reading quietly, listening to music, going on walks, hearing sermons from Reality,  cooking, minding my own damn business etc.
 Includes coworkers, family/exfamily, the IRS...

I DO care about my priorities:
1. Divorce/Custody issues
2. Being a student of the Bible and an obedient woman of God
3. Not getting stressed out from the bullshit that happens every day at my workplace (more importantly, not taking any stress home to my family)
4. A healthy diet and more consistent workouts (when I work out I like to go hard or go home, but sometimes I need to be content with some yoga/stretching/walking in lieu of putting on 5 layers and sweating my ass off with p90x or 6 mi runs)

Some things that I am having to keep on the back burner - regretfully:
1. Music (playing, writing, learning new pieces)
2. Getting my tan on for summer (being a lazy butt on the beach all weekend)
3. Reading my books
4. Working on my blog (I actually have had my own URL for a while now but have not transferred my blog because I have not yet learned enough of what I need to know to maintain my future website)

Seeking balance in life
inside to outside
internal to external
quiet to chaos
calm to stress
giving to taking
acceptance to restlessness
talking to listening
understanding to being understood
work to play
rest to exertion
joy to anger
justice to injustice
peace to distress
faith to ignorance

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Friday, March 9, 2012

When love isn't all it's made out to be
When your heart is coming apart at the seams
When there are no promises to be made
When all the light does is cast the shade

What do you believe in?

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Dont live a half life - courtesy of Positively Present

Positively Present - words to live by: Dont Live a Half Life
Had to post this from one of the blogs I follow (and love!)

Please share!

Do not love half lovers
Do not entertain half friends
Do not indulge in works of the half talented
Do not live half a life and do not die a half death
If you choose silence, then be silent
When you speak, do so until you are finished
Do not silence yourself to say something
And do not speak to be silent
If you accept, then express it bluntly
Do not mask it
If you refuse then be clear about it 
for an ambiguous refusal
is but a weak acceptance
Do not accept half a solution
Do not believe half truths
Do not dream half a dream
Do not fantasize about half hopes
Half a drink will not quench your thirst
Half a meal will not satiate your hunger
Half the way will get you no where
Half an idea will bear you no results
Your other half is not the one you love
It is you in another time yet in the same space
It is you when you are not
Half a life is a life you didn't live,
A word you have not said
A smile you postponed
A love you have not had
A friendship you did not know
To reach and not arrive
Work and not work
Attend only to be absent
What makes you a stranger to them closest to you
and they strangers to you
The half is a mere moment of inability
but you are able for you are not half a being
You are a whole that exists
to live a life not half a life
Gibran Khalil Gibran

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

a haunting

Thursday, March 1, 2012

The Hunger Games

I'm not going to be able to put this book down. I read the first three chapters last night unstoppably, to the slight dismay/content of my HunnyBear; I told him if he ever wants space and for me to leave him alone for a while, just get me a new book. and that *hint, hint* there are two more books in this series. :)

You may also notice that there is also a rack of Costco ribs, FTW. :) I also like tomatoes. (errrnt)

I seriously cant wait to get home JUST to read my book. and my hunny better KHURRYAP with the sequel, cause I'm gonna want it right away!! YAY

Last GREAT book I read was The Help. What was your last good book? What are you reading now?

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Wednesday, February 29, 2012


I've been having a lot of fun with this new program I found for editing photos! The description says it can do as much as Photoshop (not!), but it still is really cool. and free.
Its called Photoscape, and I downloaded it from the trusted (Cnet) and I've been messing around with it since yesterday. You can edit photos (lots of filters!), combine photos--overlay, not true Photoshop layers :(-- create animated gifs, and more. Here's some things I was just playing around with...

anyways its pretty cool! Its free so download it ;)

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Friday, February 24, 2012


I wish I could go back
to the days you used to try to keep me
when you wanted me close to you
and couldn't get enough of me

When our warmth and love
was all we needed to live
you used to cross rivers and mountains to see me

Now you slip into a chosen loneliness
away as far as you can get from me
you push me into uncomfortable silence
where I can't say or do anything to or for you
you don't want it.

You cross rivers to put the water between us
and build mountains I can't cross
Aren't you cold? no.
But you've frozen me in the silent ice of bitter loneliness

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Week 2 Brace Face

I was having a kind of shitty day yesterday so I didn't post but yesterday was 2 weeks with braces.
So many weird malfunctions yesterday. I was taking my daughter to school and the stoplight was not working. I could see the lights perpendicular to me were going from green to green+green arrow, back and forth and back. My light stayed red, I was about the third car in line. I know we all realized this after about 5 minutes. I wasn't about to sit there my whole life make my daughter late to school, so I backed up a few feet, got into the right lane, turned right, then in a beautiful instant flipped a cheecahno u-dturn (you have to read that with the accent) and was on my way again. I thought I was high when I asked my daughter, "is it me or does it seem like we've been sitting at this light for forever?" She confirmed I was not, in fact, high. I love that she just started to be able to determine time and dates and the like, and help a Mama out in these times when I think I'm crazy.

So then I get to work and lo and behold, my letter P wont work. My luck turns out that I have a "p" in my last name/sign on. great. After some troubleshooting of my own, including switching out keyboards, I diagnosed the problem as a software issue. Called the IT, they logged off an open ghost session I have no control of, and voila. On with the rest of my life again. :)

Even though I was in a bad mood most of the rest of the day, I tried not to get too pissed or annoyed, successfully avoided any conflict, and got shit done. I know today'll be a better day--when the only other direction is up--and because I took my crazy pills today. Well, not really they're actually Thyroid hormone pills because 3/4 of my Thyroid gland is GONE. yeah. So I'm kind of a bitch when I am all imbalanced. At least I know why and that I need to be that much more conscientious of taking them in the morning. I never forget them! Been so stressed out lately that some things just spill over. But spilling that over is like blood on the floor. :/

Well here's week 2's update!

 Still crooked, still have scrapes, cuts, and raw parts inside my cheeks but its not AS bad. Just getting used to it, and my mouth is getting tougher. I am still getting new sore spots. Flossing is a pain in the butt, but I hate not flossing so I do it. I brush at least 4x a day, after every time I eat, even snacks. I feel like a constant bad breath, but I ordered a breath spray from Melaleuca, works pretty good. It's kind of like Binaca--remember that stuff? lol. I dont chew gum. Its too hard to. Its also pretty hard to cover my inside hooks with wax. eh.

So yah, I don't think they've moved at all yet. maybe microscopically.

I have a slight complex because my loving bf said he fell in love with all of me, including my teeth, and that he'll think I'll look weird/ugly with straight teeth. Well I think about that too, and I know I'll look great but I understand what he means. I think guys are just crap at seeing potential and I know he'll love me more then not because of my teeth but because we will be that much closer and longer together. And I won't have hooks inside my mouth anymore.
Note to self: Do a working slideshow of my braces progress months 1-6 @6 months with weekly photos. Que bueno idea.

Also, Happy Frigin Birthday SISTAR!!!!! ha ha, you're old! lol jk.... love ya!!!

yep. it was like that, except DOUBLE the ice cream and DOUBLE the fudge.
Thanks for sharing ur Bday with me, Sis! <3

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Monday, February 13, 2012

Day 6 Update

Hey Y'all. I'm a little less ornery today, which is good. I did, however, have a small cup of coffee (which I rarely do!) just now because I was tired, but overall I'm alright today. My fingers are happy and felt like tapping at some keys for an update.

Here's my zigzag smile (referring to the wires). I'm surprised it doesn't look that bad in pictures. (some reg/not just my teeth pics below)
Like I said I feel pretty good, still sensitive and can't eat normal food, but I tried chewing gum the other day and besides it getting stuck in the inside hooks it wasn't too bad. One thing I can't stand is bad breath and I somehow feel like my breath smells (hence why I chew gum constantly) but it probably doesn't. I'm just paranoid about that. The only bad breath I dont mind is my Hunny's, but that's really just all love. haha.

ziggy marley zaggy!

I also eat like a cow. See-food!

Power chains and all...can you hear the chainsaw? rennnnrennnrennnnnnrrrr!!!
I dont get why there's no wire or attachment to the backmost side (bottom right) is cutting into my cheek, too. So why couldn't they put those on when they actually needed them? no se.

So yep. I am going to plan on a weekly update, since teeth move pretty fast. I want the whole progress on this blog! I know I will want to look back a year, two years from now and see how much they've moved!! yay!

Random Poker Night pic. oh yah!
Me n my Baby

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Friday, February 10, 2012

Why. WHY?!?

WHY did no one tell me I was going to have canker sores on every corner and surface of the inside of my mouth? WHY did no one tell me they were going to fuckin HURT? my teeth? fine, sensitive, but just fine. my cheeks inside? could no one have thought to mention this??

WHY did no one tell me I'd have HOOKS on the bands on the INSIDE of my back four teeth, making it virtually impossible to perform unmentionable bedroom and, may I add VERY IMPORTANT, tasks!??? W.T.F!!! NO one really thought these were imperatives in my decision to get braces? really, NO ONE??

This shit better get better or... or... or else!!! >:[

Now I will painfully continue to eat my borracho and mucho mango arizona. As a huge canker sore gets caught on a wire each and every time I open and close my mouth, like a jump rope getting stuck on a stone each time it passes the ground. yeah, you have no idea.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Brace Face!

Here they are! I am a crap blogger because I got them yesterday, but there was too much going on and I had to go to work after and I didn't get a chance to post. Ni Modo! (Oh well!) I am not in very much pain at all. I actually think the spacers I had were more painful, so far. Tons of metal in my mouth, it mashes up the inside of your cheeks pretty good. That's why they give you wax to put over the brackets but it will NOT stick to the backest ones its so annoying. I look like I got botox on my lips. I try to talk normal but there's a little fluffy part of my sounds sometimes.better than a major lisp or an unintentional whistle...

It is a special Hunny Day today because it is his birthday today! :)
So a big shout out to the love of my life, handsome and fit man
with a big heart. I love you Daddy.

We'll be going to El Pescador this weekend, and then spending time with the familia in LA.
I had a whole bunch of surprises planned for him, but I know I am not the only one whose income tax refund check is delayed. It was said that taxes filed on or after the 20th of January were the ones getting held, but mine actually went through on the 19th, so I dont know what the hell.
It's OK, the surprises will have to wait...but they WILL come. :)

More later...

EDIT: I need some Strawberry Kiwi Sherbert.

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Friday, February 3, 2012


Reciprocation: a) a mutual exchange, b) a return in kind or of like value, and c) an alternating motion.
It's Give and Take. It's you do for others, others do for you or at least pass it on.

How long will I choose to make another person a priority in my life when they choose not to make me a priority in their life?

I feel such a fool.

Edit: on an unrelated note, my teeth fuckin hurt. And I don't even have the braces yet, just spacers. They are moving my teeth so I am assuming it will feel like this ALL over my mouth when I get them on... I can't eat. It's seriously so painful. But, alas,

Thursday, February 2, 2012

braces update #3

Today I got spacers in between all my back molars... They are little round plastic thingies they floss through that create space so when they put bands around the molars there'll be enough space in there. My teeth are so squished together it was pretty hard for the dental assistant to get them in!! Considering I JUST got four teeth pulled and my mouth is still hella sore it kinda frigin hurt. I didnt make a big deal about it because the office is like an open office with chairs in a circular room and little kids were getting their teeth done too. I spared them my pirate language, cause I'm totally courteous like that.
Here's what they look like :)

See the little white lines between my back molars? yep that's the spacers. Sorry for the nasty holes where they pulled my teeth out are. they're nasty for even me to look at. Yea anyways they dont feel bad just like little rubbery things that I can feel when I bite down a lil. I keep bouncing my bite on them, haha. There's 8 in: between each of my molars.

Sometimes when people have the spacers, they can come out, in which case they have to put them back in. So obvi no gum or sticky junk like caramel or the like. I am SO hating life without gum. I am an obsessive gum chewer. >:/

What I am really happy about are a couple things:
1. The DA said my teeth are going to move very quickly.!!!! My canines aka Vampire teeth will be moving into the right place in about a month. WOW! frigin awesome! I saw in ashmariee94's youtube channel, she has SUCH a similar tooth layout and her canines moved very fast. So I am very confirmed about this.

2. I moved my brace day up -- to next wednesday the 8th!! Originally it was for the 14th (yes, I realize this was valentines day). But I just really dont want to wait that long, and dont have to, so, I wont! durrr! YAY so excited. I know anyone who's been through orthodontics and is reading this will probably understand that a) it's quite a -sometimes long- process, and b) you kind of just want to get it over with already! Right?

The spacers should give enough room for bands in one week. The bands are put on so that the can attach the brackets (braces) to them, since the brackets would not really stick very well just to your molars. I think one reason is because molars aren't really flat like our front teeth are; they have that little valley in them, ya know?

Here's a couple pics of the massive GAPS from the extractions. yes, you should look because it's the kind that is "pretty gross yet you can't look away from it"
Yep. Massive.

I decided to walk to my appt today, since I work about 2 miles from the ortho office, it was a beautiful day, and because I haven't gotten to work out hard for the last couple days since you can't right after getting teeth extracted. The dentist said my gaps are healing real well though so I can work out again. Good! I only had to take a couple days off. I'm not a workout freak, but I am on the slimfast diet (for losing weight and because of the soft-food diet I'm on from my teeth treatments). ANYways... wow tangent. talk about blah blah.
So on my way to the office, I actually ran into the two ortho Dr's Dr White and Dr Grube coming back from their lunch, I assume. We stopped to chat for a second (they are super nice and are so excited for me to be able to finally get my braces!). They said they were just talking about me recently because I have "such a great personality and my outcome is going to be so amazing" ;) Man, if they need an employee I'm gonna let them know because I LOVE their office too! They are very excited for me to say the least. :) Believe me, I AM TOO!! I told them I am blogging about my journey and that I sure am dropping their names too. hehe :)

I wanted to do a video today of my update, but I'm still too shy to be a tv personality yet. Funny, since I was named after a newscaster. irrelevant? probably. but that's Pandar. I throw random shit in there just to keep it Pandar.

I took some meds cause them dientes still hurt, so...

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Progress!! teeth out!

Hey what's up my whole two subscribers! yay! hehe

This past Tuesday I went to the DDS who was doing my extractions. My bf and I were sitting in the waiting room and I was just filling out a form when he asks, "Is your office this boring?" (I work in a Dr back office) haha. naw, I gots my musik and the copier is my friend who whispers to me in low tones.
Anywho I had taken valium about a half hour before the procedure bc I'm a total wimp when it comes to my teeth. Then I got a call from a company I applied for and set up an interview for the next day. While I was outside on the phone I ran into someone I knew and chatted for a little while, then all of a sudden I feel the valiums kick in. Normally I take them for sleep (yes they were prescribed to me for this, I am not advocating rx drugs, kids.), so standing up was really weird and I was getting rather loopy. I fb'd her the next day explaining sorry I was all out of it, as I'm sure she could tell. haha. how embarassing.
I end my conversation and the dental assistant calls me in. The Doc does an aMAzing job on the anesthesia shots (I am AWAKE for this, by the way), and I chill for a minute til my lips are fat, but I get the hiccups. Great timing. The DA comes in and shows me a way to get rid of them instantly!!!! I had never heard of this and IT WORKS. Ain't no holding ur breath/drinking upside down/swallow a spoonful of sugar crap. This is the real deal. Because WHO LIKES HICCUPS!?? I know right! Damn them! Maybe I'll fit in this little tidbit of random knowledge in my video later.... stay tuned.

So yah. I had bigass gaps in my mouth but it's all good because you cant even see them when I smile! awesomeness. And I got some more drugs out of it. its win win!

Also, I'm one of those I Google Every Damn Thing people so I found a youtube video of a chik who has almost the same teeth as me and she's got braces now! I think she does a really good job of explaining and showing her teeth, so I'm blog-"like"ing her channel! Please check her out! ashmariee94's channel!

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Friday, January 20, 2012

Toofs update

Alrighteythen! So I had my consult with the scheduler at Dr White's office yesterday... I thought all the preparations were pretty much done, but besides the extractions (scheduled for tuesday, Jan 31st), I have to have spacers put in all four corners between my molars in the back (top and bottom, left and right). The spacers are little "o" shaped rings that they "floss" between the teeth to create space and move the molars apart. This is done so that Bands can be placed around the back molar(s), which the brackets will attach to for more support than just gluing the brackets (braces) to the teeth. So I will go in on Feb 2nd for the spacers to be put in (takes 5 minutes), a few days after my extractions. THEN I could have scheduled to be braced (har har) on the 9th, BUT that's my hunny's birthday and we'll be going that weekend to LA to eat and be with family, so I dont want to be a pain in the ass just because I may be in pain. So I thought Valentine's Day was a better option. Ha ha. forreals though, Valentines Day 2012 I WILL GET MY BRACES yaaaaaaay!!!

I'm gonna miss my crooked teeth. serio. they're such a part of me now, lol.

I also will have to wear a retainer after 2 years (when I get my braces off) pretty much for the rest of my life. But eventually only a few nights a week, at night only. So that's not so bad.
This whole thing is so weird to be doing as an adult... If my daughter needs ortho treatment you better believe I'll do it for her just because it really sucks to do this later in life. I mean, who wants to be a brace face at the prime of their life? Well, maybe I havent hit my prime yet, but you get the idea. Doing this as an adult sucks bollas. I'm a great mom so I'll at least spare her this. ;)

mas luego

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Before braces...

I am so!!!!!!! self-conscious to post these pictures, but I decided I want to document my progress when I get braces in dun dun! two weeks. I got my wisdom teeth out about two years ago in preparation for this, and I need FOUR more teeth out before I have enough space to work with. Talk about severe crowding, holy cow. I needed braces when I was like 12. So 15 years later here I am.
-I am so excited-
Not so much to have them on, although I think I'll get used to them quickly (as in, be more comfortable when the surprise wears off of others). More so because ive been waiting SO long to have straight teeth. The before and after is gonna be insanely different.

So I had my initial consultation with Dr White a couple weeks ago, then I went in a few days later for x-rays and molds of my teeth/mouth. So now two weeks later I will sit down tomorrow and go over the treatment plan. It sucks because Ima be all excited today, then I have to wait ANOTHER two weeks because thats the earliest the DDS (father of the other orthodontist who shares the office with Dr White) could get my appointment for the extractions >:| It better go by fast. Im gonna make my appt for them to put the braces tomorrow so its just a few days after my extractions. I want this crap Done already. So anxious.

And so I publish these very ugly looking and embarassing pictures of my teeth, and how they look right now.

Treatment plan update later.....