Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Wednesday Wants and other random thoughts

At the risk of appearing completely selfish, spoiled, and shallow, I'm gonna share some things that I want in my life. Its a good thing that those who know me know that I am fortunately not selfish, spoiled, or shallow. :) Well maybe a little spoiled, but that's because I live in America, the land of greed and excess.
Without further disclaimer, here's the stuff!

Nikon Coolpix S4300 16 MP Digital Camera with 6x Zoom NIKKOR Glass Lens and 3-inch Touchscreen LCD
Pretty nice!!! It's only $160 :) We'll see if next month's budget allows me this luxury. I like taking pics with my iphone, but it would be really nice to have better quality as I love to take pictures! In my other life I am a photographer...  

I mean, who can argue with me here? It's a PANDAR iPHONE COVER.
'nuff said. :)

Magic Mountain
Pandar = self-proclaimed Adrenaline Junkie
I may end up going BY MYSELF if I am such a loser I don't have friends no one can go soon.

And other random thoughts...

My first braces adjustment is tomorrow. I'm not sure if I should be excited or nervous? My teeth started hurting (not bad, just sensitive and sore a lil) last week, so I'm hoping (!) it won't hurt that bad after. I also think my teeth are going to continue to get WORSE before they get better (straighter). Little gaps are showing up, and I'm still not sure if my teeth have such a great shape that, even when they're super straight, I will be as happy as I first thought. I'm hoping I'm just tripping and need to just chill the eff out be patient. But to me, right now, they look definitely worse.

I haven't had the capacity to give a shit about a lot of things lately...

I'm tired of people trying to negatively affect my environment and my attitude just to get a reaction out of me--a problem usually solved by not giving a shit, and just going into PandarWorld of reading quietly, listening to music, going on walks, hearing sermons from Reality,  cooking, minding my own damn business etc.
 Includes coworkers, family/exfamily, the IRS...

I DO care about my priorities:
1. Divorce/Custody issues
2. Being a student of the Bible and an obedient woman of God
3. Not getting stressed out from the bullshit that happens every day at my workplace (more importantly, not taking any stress home to my family)
4. A healthy diet and more consistent workouts (when I work out I like to go hard or go home, but sometimes I need to be content with some yoga/stretching/walking in lieu of putting on 5 layers and sweating my ass off with p90x or 6 mi runs)

Some things that I am having to keep on the back burner - regretfully:
1. Music (playing, writing, learning new pieces)
2. Getting my tan on for summer (being a lazy butt on the beach all weekend)
3. Reading my books
4. Working on my blog (I actually have had my own URL for a while now but have not transferred my blog because I have not yet learned enough of what I need to know to maintain my future website)

Seeking balance in life
inside to outside
internal to external
quiet to chaos
calm to stress
giving to taking
acceptance to restlessness
talking to listening
understanding to being understood
work to play
rest to exertion
joy to anger
justice to injustice
peace to distress
faith to ignorance

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

Friday, March 9, 2012

When love isn't all it's made out to be
When your heart is coming apart at the seams
When there are no promises to be made
When all the light does is cast the shade

What do you believe in?

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Dont live a half life - courtesy of Positively Present

Positively Present - words to live by: Dont Live a Half Life
Had to post this from one of the blogs I follow (and love!)

Please share!

Do not love half lovers
Do not entertain half friends
Do not indulge in works of the half talented
Do not live half a life and do not die a half death
If you choose silence, then be silent
When you speak, do so until you are finished
Do not silence yourself to say something
And do not speak to be silent
If you accept, then express it bluntly
Do not mask it
If you refuse then be clear about it 
for an ambiguous refusal
is but a weak acceptance
Do not accept half a solution
Do not believe half truths
Do not dream half a dream
Do not fantasize about half hopes
Half a drink will not quench your thirst
Half a meal will not satiate your hunger
Half the way will get you no where
Half an idea will bear you no results
Your other half is not the one you love
It is you in another time yet in the same space
It is you when you are not
Half a life is a life you didn't live,
A word you have not said
A smile you postponed
A love you have not had
A friendship you did not know
To reach and not arrive
Work and not work
Attend only to be absent
What makes you a stranger to them closest to you
and they strangers to you
The half is a mere moment of inability
but you are able for you are not half a being
You are a whole that exists
to live a life not half a life
Gibran Khalil Gibran

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

a haunting

Thursday, March 1, 2012

The Hunger Games

I'm not going to be able to put this book down. I read the first three chapters last night unstoppably, to the slight dismay/content of my HunnyBear; I told him if he ever wants space and for me to leave him alone for a while, just get me a new book. and that *hint, hint* there are two more books in this series. :)

You may also notice that there is also a rack of Costco ribs, FTW. :) I also like tomatoes. (errrnt)

I seriously cant wait to get home JUST to read my book. and my hunny better KHURRYAP with the sequel, cause I'm gonna want it right away!! YAY

Last GREAT book I read was The Help. What was your last good book? What are you reading now?

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫