Wednesday Wants and other random thoughts

At the risk of appearing completely selfish, spoiled, and shallow, I'm gonna share some things that I want in my life. Its a good thing that those who know me know that I am fortunately not selfish, spoiled, or shallow. :) Well maybe a little spoiled, but that's because I live in America, the land of greed and excess.

Without further disclaimer, here's the stuff!

Nikon Coolpix S4300 16 MP Digital Camera with 6x Zoom NIKKOR Glass Lens and 3-inch Touchscreen LCD

Pretty nice!!! It's only $160 :) We'll see if next month's budget allows me this luxury. I like taking pics with my iphone, but it would be really nice to have better quality as I love to take pictures! In my other life I am a photographer...  

I mean, who can argue with me here? It's a PANDAR iPHONE COVER.

'nuff said. :)

Magic Mountain

X2

Pandar = self-proclaimed Adrenaline Junkie

I may end up going BY MYSELF if I am such a loser I don't have friends no one can go soon.

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And other random thoughts...

My first braces adjustment is tomorrow. I'm not sure if I should be excited or nervous? My teeth started hurting (not bad, just sensitive and sore a lil) last week, so I'm hoping (!) it won't hurt that bad after. I also think my teeth are going to continue to get WORSE before they get better (straighter). Little gaps are showing up, and I'm still not sure if my teeth have such a great shape that, even when they're super straight, I will be as happy as I first thought. I'm hoping I'm just tripping and need to just chill the eff out be patient. But to me, right now, they look definitely worse.

I haven't had the capacity to give a shit about a lot of things lately...

I'm tired of people trying to negatively affect my environment and my attitude just to get a reaction out of me--a problem usually solved by not giving a shit, and just going into PandarWorld of reading quietly, listening to music, going on walks, hearing sermons from Reality,  cooking, minding my own damn business etc.
 Includes coworkers, family/exfamily, the IRS...

I DO care about my priorities:
1. Divorce/Custody issues
2. Being a student of the Bible and an obedient woman of God
3. Not getting stressed out from the bullshit that happens every day at my workplace (more importantly, not taking any stress home to my family)
4. A healthy diet and more consistent workouts (when I work out I like to go hard or go home, but sometimes I need to be content with some yoga/stretching/walking in lieu of putting on 5 layers and sweating my ass off with p90x or 6 mi runs)

Some things that I am having to keep on the back burner - regretfully:
1. Music (playing, writing, learning new pieces)
2. Getting my tan on for summer (being a lazy butt on the beach all weekend)
3. Reading my books
4. Working on my blog (I actually have had my own URL for a while now but have not transferred my blog because I have not yet learned enough of what I need to know to maintain my future website)

Seeking balance in life
inside to outside
internal to external
quiet to chaos
calm to stress
giving to taking
acceptance to restlessness
talking to listening
understanding to being understood
work to play
rest to exertion
joy to anger
justice to injustice
peace to distress
faith to ignorance

hasta luego Pandaritos! ♪ª£¡♫

5 Random Pandar Things

5. I made my stuffed pasta shells (aka "Seashells") the other day and O M G they were good. (Where are my dang pictures of these wonderful things? oh well) That's like my specialty dish. It wins over ANYbody. :)

Kind of like this, except more mozarella. You can never have too much mozarella. :)

4. New music project is playing with COGOP -- Church of God of Prophecy, except this is Spanish so it's La Iglesia de Dios de Profecía ;) My Hunny seriously is THE best music director/teacher and instrumentalist. He's really amazing. Its a treat to play with him and our backup singers are three sweet girls (one is my bf's daughter) with great voices. My Hunny was playing keys to practice last night but he'll be singing up front doing harmonies while another really good musician will rock keys with his dad on guitar (background/chords), and I'm not sure who the drummer is but I wish my Hunny could do drums AND sing AND play bass, lol. He's got to direct and speak and stuff too, so, cant have it all! :) So I am just happy to be playing for something since I haven't had a music project since over 6 months now... yay! Best thing is that it's worship. And I always think that no matter where I am in life or what I've done or how I'm living, I have to give thanks to God and the musical abilities He gave me is the best way to show my gratitude. Honestly, my heart was never for playing in bars and using the music solely to entertain. Music is too precious and sacred for me. Its my gift, and I have to give it back to the One who gave it to me. And everything else I have in my life. Ya know?

3. The *only* sappy romantic movie I can stomach is The Notebook. I'm kind of like a guy in this way. I like to laugh at the tiny package holders they wear in WWE (yea you, Randy Orton). I will NEVER miss a UFC fight. I'll always go for the action movies over the popular romantic comedies (barf. There are few exceptions!) when going through Moviefone. I am good at fixing things like fallen towel bars and soldering electronic connections and debugging/troubleshooting people's computers. I like to do active, messy, outdoor, tough things better than I like to sew or decorate or spend hours on my hair/nails/shit us girls do in the bathroom. Yet I am unmistakably very much a feminine woman. I love chocolate and shopping and makeup and shoes as much as the next beotch. But guy stuff is kind of more fun for me a lot of times. And I like to think that I could kick it. :)

2. I LOOOOOOVE insane roller coasters. My Hunny does not. But he recently took me to Magic Mountain, as a total surprise (I had NO idea, but he knew since we met over 6 years ago I wanted to go), and went on ALL the rides with me!!!! EVEN X2. I'll never forget his face on X2, frigin priceless. When we were next on, he was literally shaking. And my hunny is a pretty tough, badass dude, forreals. I've never seen him scared or worried at all. So we get on the ride after a long, nervous wait, and its just gotten dark at the park so it looks pretty cool. The ride goes up the "hill" but unlike any ride I've been on, you are facing up/outwards towards the sky. I so wish I could have taken a picture then because it was probably the most awesome scene ever. right at sunset too. omg. Ok so anyways I look over at my baby and his hands are clenched to the bars and eyes are closed so tight, like The Cat in the Hat in "I Can Read with my Eyes Shut," lol. "Open your eyes Hunny its SO COOL!!" "no! ... no!" shaking his head and pursing his lips like a little kid who doesn't want to eat their spinach. I closed my eyes on the first drop and then when I gathered the balls to open them again I could not tell you which direction I was facing, which was up or down, or which way we were going. It was insane. I've never been that scared shitless any moment of my life leading up to that. If it hadnt been closing time I would have gone again right after EYES OPEN the whole time :) Guess I'll have to go back!!!! muahahahaha!!  

Yep that was my Hunny and me LOL.



1. I can't dance to save my life. Its probably the combination of me being completely un-aerodynamic, clumsy/awkward, and slow. However, I still have hope that one day I'll dance some dirrrrty ass street salsa and people at all the Mexican weddings will say, "Damn, look at that white girl dance!!" lol. I'm half kidding. Mostly I wonder why my sister can rock the sh*t out of state street solstice parade and hip hop clubs and under the same parents I can't. She can also sing notes I can only hit in the bedroom in the shower with no one listening. But, I dont mind that she's got all kinds of different talents than me, actually thats awesome. (She really is awesome!) I just would have AHEM appreciated! a bit of the dance gene, feel me? I guess it was big boobs or dancing ability. I'm still going to be the most guera-est big tittie having ghetty booty hip rockin Pandar. You can be sure of that. :)

So what's your favorite ride, or are you a closed-eyed rider like my Hunny?